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he told me "i just want you to be happy" probably ten times while we were on the phone today. and it made me cry, because every once in a while i'm reminded of the full extent of how wonderful he is, like not how much i always conciously know, but like it really hits me sometimes. and how he just wants the best for me, and i know that it's because he really loves me so much. and i love him even more than that amount. its like an uberzillion.
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001. What is Your Name? Jess
002. How old are you? 17
003. What is the link to your website, blog, or myspace? www.livejournal.com/users/j_tilt
General
004. What is your height? 5'6"
005. Do you have any siblings? yeah, 2
006. What is your eye colour? blue
007. What is your hair colour? dirty blonde
008. Do you wear glasses or contacts? i have both, but wear contacts usually
009. Are you right handed or left handed? right
010. Do you have any piercings? just ears
011. Do you smoke? nope
012. Do you swear? only sometimes
013. Do you get along with your parents? sometimes
014. Your heritage you name it
015. Your fears being forgotten
016. Goal you would like to achieve this year get into schools and decide to go to one
017. Most overused phrase on an instant messenger haha
018. Best Physical Feature eh, eyes?
019. Your bedtime hah whenever
020. What time do you arise in the morning? during school, like 6:30.. if not, whenever
021. First thoughts waking up? crap i'm tired
022. Do you shower daily? yup
This Or That?
023. Bright or dark room? bright
024. Chocolate or vanilla? chocolate
025. Dogs of cats? dogs
026. Pepsi or Coke? pepsi
027. McDonalds or Burger King? mcdonalds
028. Ant or Dec? i dont know what that means
029. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea? whatever
030. Cappuccino or Coffee? cappuccino
In the last month have you...
031. Drank alcohol? no comment
032. Gone to a mall? yeah
033. Eaten a box of Oreos? not a whole box, no
034. Eaten sushi? no
035. Been on stage? umm no
036. Been dumped? nope
037. Gone skinny dipping? sadly no
038. Stolen Anything? only his heart :-P
Have you ever...
039. Laughed for no reason? of course
040. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do? ohhh yes
041. Been in love? yes sir
042. Fired a gun? yep
043. Been drunk? behh.. no
044. Been called a Tease? yup
045. Been beaten up? no
046. Shoplifted? yeah
What was the last....
047. Furry thing you touched? um hah my stuffed animal?
048. Thing you've said? "okay"
049. Song you've listened to? buttons by the pussycat dolls
050. (Who was the last) person you've spoken to on the phone? Juanathon
051. Movie you watched? robots hehe
052. Thing you were doing before this? taking my psych book out to read.. that got far
053. Time you cried? yesterday
054. Song you've sang? ooh cant remember
055. Time you looked at the clock? like 10 minutes ago
056. Food and drink you've had? haha we had KFC for dinner
057. Flavour of gum you've chewed? some minty kind
058. Shoes you've worn? my SM flip flops
059. Store you've been in? i think it was gap actually
Favourite...
060. Planet? earth?
061. Age you've been so far? 16 or 17
062. Season? i have to say summer now
063. Number? 1211
064. TV show? fresh prince of bel-air and that 70's show
065. Flower? white rose
Random...
066. How much cash do you have on you? 31 bucks in my wallet
067. What's a word that rhymes with 'door'? poor, more, sore, floor
068. What T-Shirt are you wearing? my varitek tshirt and black zip-up
069. What brand of shoes are you wearing? no shoes :)
070. What did your last text message say? "yeah i know. i thought u were going 2 get me a win? i cant show my face on campus after this series"
071. What were you doing at midnight last night? talking online and watching the sox
072. What's your current desktop picture? me and jon looking so completely happy
073. What's a word that you say a lot? yeah
074. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? pink
075. How is the weather right now? not bad, kinda chilly
076. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? face, obvi, and build- shoulders, butt, torso
077. Are you too shy to ask someone out? nope
078. Can you do a headstand (not using a wall)? haha no way
079. Who would you like to see right now? i'll give you one guess.. it starts with j and ends with n
080. How many pillows do you sleep with? well, 2.. but only one under my head
081. Would you go on a date with someone on MySpace? heck no
082. How do you want to die? painlessly
083. What do you want to be when you grow up? happy :)
084. What country would you most like to visit? aruba
085. How many CDs do you own? oodles
086. How many things, in your past, do you regret? not many
087. Do you think you are attractive? more or less
088. Do you believe in yourself? usually
089. Do you want to get married? yes sir
In a boy/girl...
090. Favourite eye colour? green/ brown
091. Favourite hair colour? brown
092. Short or long hair? short
093. Height? few inches taller than me
094. Weight? like 160- 185.. ish?
095. First name? Jon
096. Last name? Blanton
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[2 danced all night | Let go]
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| being that kid |
[21 Aug 2006|06:44pm] |
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A - Age: 17
B - Band listening to right now: lifehouse (you and me)
C - Career: eh student
D - Drink or smoke: umm drink? smoking is gross
E - Easiest person/s to talk to: juan by far
F - Favorite song/s at the moment: wonderful tonite- eric clapton, right thurr- chingy, when you're mad- neyo,
G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: BEARS for shizz
H - Hot or cold: mmm depends on who i'm with ;)
I - Impressed easily: well, depends on what we're talking about. i'm not really impressed by many guys anymore because i've got the one that they can't compare to. but if it's like talents or something, sure i guess
J - Junk foods you like: can i put 'just about anything'? but ice cream is my fave fave
K - Keepsakes: my pillowwww :)
L - Longest car ride ever: behh cant remember which was longer, to ohio or to tennessee
M - My favorite Sport/s: to play, i guess just soccer. well maybe basketball too. i dunno i've almost gotten over this whole athletic girl thing. but to watch, basketball, hockey, football, baseball, soccer. pretty much anything active.
N - Number of relationships you've had: legit ones? 3. unless you could count it as 4? haha i dunno, i guess it's 4.
O - One wish you have: "forever"
P - Phobias: picking up bugs, dead or alive; and wow i cant think of anything else. i dont know, what are my phobias?
Q - Favorite Quote: "Courage is not the absence of fear, but simply the understanding that something else is more important."
R - Reason to smile: that college boy
S- Song: stupid, this was already asked.
T- Time you woke up: bry woke me up at 9:20. bleh.
U - Unknown fact about you: i have to fall asleep with my heart pillow or else i cant sleep
V - Vegetable/fruit you hate: peas
W - Worst habit: worrying
X - X-rays you've had: my knees multiple times, and my head because i'm a crazy person
Y- Yummy food/s: ice cream, cereal, dark chocolate, chicken and rice.... and i'm gonna change "foods" to "tastes" so that i can also say his lips.
Z- Zodiac sign: gemini, right?
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| i know this is probably gonna come out sounding retarded, but |
[26 Jun 2006|04:32pm] |
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something like me cutting my arm, and then him making me let him lick it, and then it stinging, so him wrapping it with a cotton swab and medical tape that did hurt when i pulled it off- that's something that i would say embodies one of the many reasons i love him so much, and why i wouldn't let this go for anything.
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| you know what's one of my favorite things? |
[04 Jun 2006|09:52pm] |
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is feeling like we've been together forever, because we're so comfortable and best friends, and everything, BUT still getting that happy, giddy, he makes me so happy and i'm so lucky feeling, like i did when we first started going out.
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| ::insert jessie smile face:: |
[02 Jun 2006|04:33pm] |
today's my birthday :) yay
and i was just at a bookstore looking for summer reading books for school, and i saw a book called 'peaches' and i got it. i had to! :D ...it looked really good actually, too.
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| "go be a good girl and do your work for me" :D |
[30 May 2006|05:18pm] |
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^i will in 2 minutes 0:)
what a crazy weekend... the ups and the downs, the extremes of emotion. to me i think it makes me feel more alive. speaking from today's perspective, i loved this weekend. it allowed for so much fun and craziness, but also tears and growth. that's what life's about.
"...and i could make you laugh. i mean, i can make a lot of people laugh, i mean c'mon, i'm a funny guy, but your laugh is my favorite. you could take everyone's laughs and put them together, and it wouldn't be as great as when you do it. if someone were to ask me what my favorite thing in the world, in the whole world, was, i would say hearing you laugh."
and no, that's not a movie quote. that's legit.
and to anyone else reading i know it just seems like a cutsie quote from my boyfriend because we're just so lovey dovey all the time, right? but it wasn't meant to be a cutsie quote, and at the time when he said it, we weren't in a cutsie mood, but he still said it because it's legit to him. and it's things like that that won't cease to amaze me. that even when he's not in a good mood for some reason, and sometimes it's me, he still cares about me more than the mood.
and now i know i'm just thinking aloud (and by aloud i guess i mean by typing) but that's exactly it, it's what i'm thinking. and it's strange because i don't normally update real stuff. but that's as real as it gets for me right now. and now i'm gonna go work on some english because it's obviously been well over 2 minutes now, and i've got a lump in my throat like i could start crying. you know, one of those really touched, can't believe someone cares about me so much, cries. the good ones.
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| so, things that i'm really looking forward to right now- |
[15 May 2006|09:55pm] |
in chronological order:
-jon's graduation party (in 5 days)
-jon's graduation (in 6 days)
-both crew and classes ending (in 12 days)
-SM prize day and graduation and becoming a senior :) (in 14 days)
-finishing exams and SUMMER SUMMER SUMMER (in 21 days)
and right now i'm just content ending with summer. because summer will be absolutely kick ass, and yes i did just say kick ass. i know.
and i love that boy with ALL my heart.. i'm pretty sure it's gotten bigger since we've been together, actually.
:)
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| happy one year and five months for us :) yay :) |
[11 May 2006|08:23pm] |
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hm it's been a while.
so i hear that there's this hott senior boy that finished classes today... and i'm wicked jealous. but i get to hang out with that boy tomorrow night :) and hey only one more day of school this week! and totally only 2 more weeks of classes after that.
so last night i like worked my butt off and was so tired and so tonite i'm thinking i can take it a little more slacker, because i can actually afford to tonite.. but not too slacker, cuz you know that's not my style :-P
it's funny, and by funny i mean ironic, because i absolutely love my boat, and we all get along well and i have a great time with them during in-between times at practice, and mr. harris doesn't really get mad when he sees us laughing and everything because i think he's just happy that he has a winning boat, which he hasn't had in a while. and i really enjoy how we've won most of our races. but i just don't really like crew. and how it's supposed to rain for literally the next week straight.. kinda turns me off to it. and about completely ridiculous weekend-being-taken-up things.. yeah. bleh. i don't know.
I CANT WAIT FOR SUMMER lahsglasdhglhs
but i'm really gonna miss the seniors. and when i say the seniors, i mean the ones at school, because those are the ones i won't really see after i leave school for the summer. after the summer's over... oh man. that's a whole story altogether. all the grace kids will be gone. and my boy. oh man.
all i can say is that i'm so incredibly lucky to have him. everyone reminds me of that everyday. and it's completely evident in everything he does for me. all i can say is that he's the one thing i am unwilling to ever let go of.
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| hehe a survey cuz i'm dope like that.. :P and NOT BEHIND A CUT! |
[26 Apr 2006|07:27pm] |
{taken from Kevin}
RED
Closest red thing to you? my st. john's lanyard
Last thing to make you angry? maybe angry isn't the word, but losing to groton and deerfield today
Are you a fan of romance? yessum :)
Orange
Closest orange thing to you? um a medicine bottle
Do you like to burn things? not really
Dress up for halloween? haha yeah :)
Are you usually a warm-hearted person? def.. i generally find it hard not to be
Do you have anything against ginger hair? haha no. ::cough:: alex
Are you usually full of energy? meh depends
Yellow
Closest yellow thing to you? the sticky pre-caution things on the medicine bottle
Happiest time of your life? that first night he kissed me
Favorite holiday? christttttttttttttmas
What makes you smile? i'll give you one guess :)
Are you a coward? i dont think so.
Do you burn or tan? yeaaaaah i TAN
Green
Closest green thing to you? my little "you fill my heart with joy" thing.. its like a little glass container.. sarah gave it to me. sometimes i keep candy in there when i'm feeling crazy :P
Do you care about the environment? sadly, not so much
Are you jealous of anyone right now? um, probably
Are you a lucky person? def.
Do you always want what you can't have? nope
Do you like being outdoors? meh sometimes
Blue
Closest blue thing to you? my boy's sweatshirt that i'm wearing
Are you good at calming people down? usually
Do you like the sea? yeah.. unless i'm at a beach where it's either really cold or theres nasty seaweed everywhere
Last thing to make you cry? my last full-out cry i think was last thursday. it was a couple things. and by a couple, yes i mean two.
Are you a logical thinker? depends on the circumstances
Can you sleep easily? hah HECK YES i fall asleep at night within like 5 minutes of closing my eyes
Purple
Closest Purple thing to you? an easter card i meant to give to someone but never did
Like being treated to expensive things? sometimes.
Do you like mysterious things? umm.. i dont think so
Favorite type of chocolate? DARK
Ever met anyone in royalty? is the president of ruwanda royalty? :P
Are you creative? hah i'm pretty sure thats a no
Pink
Closest pink thing to you: my phooone :)
Do you like sweet foods? yeah i do
Like play-fighting? sometimes i guess, but once i tried this play fighting thing, and then during it i decided i didnt like it so much.
Are you sensitive? yeah
Do you like punk music? haha some of it
White
Closest white thing to you? tissues
Would you say you're innocent? comparitivly speaking, yeah.
Always try to keep the peace? thats me
How do you imagine your wedding, if you want one? traditional, big, in the late morning, the happiest day of my life knowing that i'll be with him officially forever.. i could elaborate but i wont :)
Do you like to play in the snow? yeah
Are you afraid of going to the doctors or dentists? the doctors, no. the dentist- ohmyfreakinggosh. cant stand it.
Black
Closest black thing to you? the keyboard
Ever enjoy hurting people? no way
Are you sophisticated or silly? haha both :)
Afraid of death? more afraid of getting old and deteriorating in both mind and body
Would you like to go to space? no thank you
Do you have a lot of secrets? umm yeah from everyone except the boy
What is your favorite color? green
Does the color you wear affect your mood? nope
What color would you think best symbolizes your personality? maybe pink :)
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| tagggged.. |
[15 Apr 2006|11:34pm] |
..by kevin
Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 8 weird facts/things/habits about yourself, and also say who tagged you. In the end you need to choose the 6 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs.
1. I have to put my right shoe on before my left one.
2. I can't blow my nose in front of people.
3. I think that all cookies, no matter what kind, are so much better when they're frozen.
4. I think that Vanilla Ice was an awesome artist.
5. I get jealous probably too easily but I'm not the greatest at noticing it when I'm on the other end.
6. If I'm trying out for something or something, I don't like to tell many people about it because then if I don't get whatever it is, I hate feeling like people feel like they have to give me sympathy.
7. I fell in love with the man I'm gonna marry when I was only 15.
8. When I'm really excited about something I usually end up telling people the same story like three times... and I also tell really bad jokes.. all the time.
I tag my baby, brittany, jo, kara, jess, meghan
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| bas-i-cuh-ly, |
[01 Apr 2006|12:29am] |
6 days until prom with the love of my life :)
and as great as that's gonna be, i really have the best time EVERY time i'm with him.
and that's all this brain can handle right now.
sleeeeep
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| allll of my technology and i are not getting along very well right now. |
[22 Mar 2006|12:23am] |
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but HE still never ceases to amaze me.
and crew has started. and all the stuff that comes with that.
and prom is officially in 16 days. and that in itself is extremely exciting.
and i really just can't wait until the summer. need i say more? just a little over two more months...
bedtime. too little sleep in this girl.
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| now that we know it, let's really show it darlin |
[10 Mar 2006|11:54pm] |
so it's been a little while... got through a couple weeks of school and started spring break :) went down south with the padre and visited a few (several?) schools and ate lots of food and drove a lot. well he drove because i wasn't allowed to so he wouldn't let me.
went to the celtics game tonite with dad, bry, and juanathon, that was fun :) i really enjoy nights like tonite. and tomorrow is a dance... i'm excited. it's been too long. plus it'll be the 11th :D
alrite. going to bed now. this update didn't turn out as successful as i thought it would be. oh wellllll
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